Today was a lovely day, hot, sunny, i went around with my ex, discovering places, amazing views, a very nice restaurant where we ate lovely. Everything was quite nice, the day infact was ok. Too much it seems. Tonight he ruined everything again. He always did it, spoiling a nice, peaceful, happy day is his favourite hobby. He started by calling me over and over to go in his room. He said he wanted a hug. I was busy and kept saying i couldn't. I was having problems with pop ups on my pc. I said no, once, twice, 3 times, 4 times, 5 times, he was never stopping. I got stressed, i got angry and finally i went crazy. I hate him. He made me have an attack of nerves, he made me angry, sad, screaming, he called me crazy when he knows i hate it, making me furious. He seems to love it, and i couldn't help being involved in it. And then to give the final touch he denied, he denied and interrupt my speaking saying he didn't know why I suddenly became like that, he started talking over and over again the same things showing he was calm, interrupting my rage, telling me I was crazy and I even scared him with my behaviour!!! He spoke over me, telling lies, saying he did nothing and saying that I was crazy, and that I had problems, and that I needed to see a doctor! Insults, lies, calm face, like a psicho in a film. And I could do nothing but cry, ask why he was behaving like that, asking him why he was doing that to me, why does he always have to ruin my happiness. And I felt abused. Then he suddenly came back to me, he hugged me wanting me to stop crying. But that doesn't change what happened, neither tonight nor the other times, is this not psychological violence?
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Have you asked him-- not when he's doing it, but when he's being good-- why he tries to make you crazy?
Oh, by the way-- the Nicene Creed is also called the Credo or the Profession of Faith or maybe The Apostle's Creed
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